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[EDWARD GRIEVES] [JACOB DREAMS] [BELLA'S NIGHTMARE] [CONFESSIONS] [LION, LAMB AND MEADOW]

FanFic: Edward Grieves By KristinLynn  - Its been six months since I had my "Alice moment" and this little beauty was born in my mind. I tucked it away here and did not look at it for months. I always wanted the music embedded for the readers. Once we accomplished that, I read this piece again and decided it needed a overhaul! The following I believe is the polished end product!!! Please enjoy and let me know if it still measures up?
Thanks,
-K

Edward Grieves set to Peter Gabriel’s I Grieve.
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Edward shuts phone. As he stares at the phone it crumbles under his grip and he begins to shake violently. He falls over on his side holding his head in his hands.  He slowly crawls through the small attic space. He stumbles out of a building and finds a car on a remote street. Driving too fast to the airport he envisions a white casket covered with white Calla Lilies. He sees everyone in Forks, closest to the casket is Charlie, Jacob, Billy and the Cullens family. He takes a step forward and everyone looks at him simultaneously with cold blank faces. He exits the car and collapses beside it. He rises on one knee heaving holding his chest. We see a Latino man concentrating on a computer screen ….. Edward is standing opposite him staring at the second hand ticking on a clock behind the attendant.

It was only one hour ago

Edward pays for a ticket then boards a plane all awhile he remains unaware of the effect he still has on surrounding women. He sees a beautiful mother holding the hand of a little brown hair girl walking down the aisle of a plane.

It was all so different then
There's nothing yet has really sunk in

Sitting in the first class section of the plane Edward examines the bottle cap he is weaving in his fingertips

Looks like it always did

Edward looks at his hand turning it back and forth flexing his fingers

This flesh and bone

He looks out at the stars, the reflection of the glass becomes the reflection in Bella’s dark dining room window the inside shot shows empty table, empty chairs

Its just the way that you would tied in
Now there's no-one home

As he is walking in the dark he glances at a woman in the distance with the same hair as Bella. Before she turns; Edward sees Bella walking in Port Angelos as she turns the woman no longer resembles Bella.


I grieve for you

Opening shot of Edward walking under the eaves of the clock-tower, He turns toward the Plaza looking at the water in the fountain which is reflected in his now dark eyes. The water reflection in his pupil grows as we see a cliff over water and a woman plunge

You leave me

We see Bella in the forest with hurt eyes looking at him as he kisses her forhead she turns to dust and dissolves away from him

so hard to move on

We see Bella’s finger tracing the back of Edwards arm in the meadow then Edward staring at the back of his arm in the Plaza

 
Still loving what’s gone

Bella in her room talking to him, in the dark classroom clutching her fists, looking at Edward

They say life carries on

Bella in the parking lot as Edward saves her, when he looks at her she crumbles to dust

Carries on and on and on and on


Opening shot on an empty meadow which drifts right to a plant… which blends into an empty Bella’s room, empty bed with a picture on her nightstand of the beach…. which is pulled in for a close up of a now empty beach back to the water fountain….. back to the phone dropping from his hand and he falls over in a cramped space

The news that truly shocks is the empty empty page
While the final rattle rocks its empty empty cage
And I cant handle this


Edward’s eye is caught by a flower close-up to the petals then fade out to see it is the exact hue as Bella’s lower lip on that first kiss

I grieve for you

We see a shot of them laying on her bed with her hair in his hand, she grabs his hand kisses it and tucks it close to her, close-up on his hand which now pulls out empty from his chest in the Plaza

You leave me

Bella rolling over waking in the morning smiling  then crumbles to dust

Let it out and move on

Bella erasing her homework on a notebook in her room when she blows on the paper her images crumbles to dust

Missing what’s gone

Open shot to an alive Bella running from the car Alice is driving in Volturra. She is searching for Edward she scans the sea of faces and suddenly spots him -close up on Edward’s face with bright reflection in his dark iris

They say life carries on
They say life carries on and on and on

Edward is looking at the sun reflecting off a cross on a woman’s chest, the reflection takes over the screen and we see the streets of Forks, the school parking lot, the cafeteria, his house, Charlie sitting in his chair with a beer, Esme and Carlisle by the piano, Alice and Jasper cuddled on a porch seat, Rosalie and Emmet sitting on the garage floor

Life carries on
In the people I meet

Bella hits the fountain and runs across it. She is screaming something and everything seems much to slow as she can take in impossible inventory of those between her and him including the boy with yellow hair in his Mother’s arms

In everyone thats out on the street

Bella desperately wants Edward’s eye contact but he is looking above the crowd

In all the dogs and cats

Bella sees the family near him,

In the flies and rats

the little girl looking at him, the father looking at Bella running toward them

In the rot and the rust

The father instinctively pulls his daughter and wife close to him

In the ashes and the dust

Edward half closes his eyes and turns his palms out, the reflection happens again and we hear Bella laughing, he sees her in the cafeteria looking at him, dancing with him in the prom, cooking in her kitchen, reading, rolling over asleep on her bed, kissing him, falling over a cliff…fades

Life carries on and on and on and on

Bella is very close, screaming his name in vain, we can’t hear her either. The family moves away from Edward.

Life carries on and on and on

Edward sees a vision of Bella in his car then she turns to dust and dissolves away from him

Its just the car that we ride in

Bella is by the piano and dissolves away

A home we reside in

Full view of Bella smiling overtaken by a reflection

The face that we hide in

Bella and Edward facing each other on her bed

The way we are tied in

Edward flashes to Twilight with Bella at the Prom carry her outside, stroking her cheek kissing her neck, entwining his hand with hers

And life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on

Bella is so close but realizes that Edward is completely unaware
The Waggoner is in Edward’s vision and he scans down the pictures of the wall to a portrait of Bella and him that turns to dust and slowly dissolves

Did I dream this belief?
Or did I believe this dream?

Bella in white dress stepping up to his hand

Now I can find relief
I grieve

Bella is almost at Edward and she throws herself into him
Edward half steps forward and light begins to flood him as he catches an angel that looks like Bella, his nostrils flare as he inhales deeply; he is looking down at her with a soft smile.

[EDWARD GRIEVES] [JACOB DREAMS] [BELLA'S NIGHTMARE] [CONFESSIONS] [LION, LAMB AND MEADOW]

FanFic: Jacob Dreams While Warming Bella By KristinLynn  
As usual I don't try to do fanfic. I just listened to songs and let them fill in where maybe Steph left it up to us to imagine for now. Ok ladies, this is more tastefully adult themed. I picked this song because Jude can really hit the vocals like a werewolf would and there is some weird parallel to the story and lyrics. The way it builds reminds me of Jacob’s passion for Bella. His intuitiveness of the physical attraction Bella feels toward him. Here’s a link to listen to the song while you read. Zowie that boy is getting to me and I don’t think he has given up by a long shot!

Jacobs Dreams while holding Bella set to I Know by Jude.
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Jacob has finally fallen asleep with Bella in his arms in the tent. Edward is huddled in a corner looking away. Jacob begins to dream:

He is much younger at first walking with Bella on the beach. It is the first night they meet and she is using those "eyes" on him! Next, he and Bella are driving in the truck laughing, then they are in the parts store. He sees Bella smiling at him. It’s the first unsolicited smile she’s given in his company since her dark time and it warms him. He looks down shyly and then glances up….

You’ve got such a pretty smile

He sees Bella walking alone on the beach holding her stomach and chest. He’s there reaching for her hand and as

It’s a shame the things you hide behind it

she reaches out too, he grabs her, pulls her in wrapping his arms around her she looks up with the I can’t breath face and they break away from each other laughing

Let ’em go
Give it up for a while

They’re running they jump on their motorcycles and go flying together.

Let ’em free and we will both go find it

Jacob glances at the black paint on his motorcycle as he looks away from the blackness he is outside of Bella’s window and he sees her curled on herself in her bed.

I know there’s nowhere you can hide it

Jacob looks over his shoulder at the trees with a tear in his eye, he looks back to see Bella standing alone on a dark road.

I know the feeling of alone

Bella is walking slowly on the road looking at something bright.


I know that you do not feel invited

She is at the territory border and Jacob is beckoning her into the dawn of his side away from the dark road where Edward stands far away in the distance

But, come back, come back in from the cold


She steps toward Jacob with her hand extended he takes it and they walk along a beach and onto some rocks. He leads her, reaching down to pull her up. As she stands up he pulls her away from the edge we see it has become the cliff where she jumped

Step away then from the edge

Bella is looking down and suddenly glances up to see she is in front of a full length free standing mirror where Edward is her reflection.

Your best friend is life is not your mirror

Jacob is still holding her hand next to the mirror just past Edward’s reflection He pulls Bella around the mirror. He gets her in an embrace and spins with her .

Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away

He turns her from his chest to look out at the sea and begins to kiss her from behind on the side of her head and down her neck she turns into his face meeting his lips and spins back into his embrace while they kiss.

I am here and I will be forever

They continue a passionate embrace as we spin around them and see a very cozy plain but warm looking bedroom with the sun coming through a window

I know there’s nowhere you can hide it

Jacob pulls Bella down on top of him in the bed. He puts her face between his hands and draws her in for another kiss.

I know the feeling of alone

We see Bella’s back as she sits up her shoulders bare and her hair curling in ringlets of perspiration.

Trust me and don’t keep that on the inside

She arches her head back with her eyes closed. A bead of perspiration rolls from her forehead down her cheek to her chin.


Soon you’ll be locked out on your own

Bella is biting her lower lip. We see Jacobs hands working around her sides then pulling her hips toward him she falls into him.

You’re not alone

Bella uses her thumbs to trace Jacobs mid-line from his belly button to his chest she massages his pecks and then clutches the outside of his shoulders
We see her wrist with the bracelet

You’re not alone

Bella’s wrist with the bracelet is lying at the head of the bed and she is staring intensly at the diamond heart. Jacob is lying behind her

And don’t say you’ve never been told

She suddenly leaps from bed fully dressed and bolts from the tiny brown house at twilight. Jacob sits up casually in his sweats.

I’ll be with you ’til we grow old

We see him walk outside he is leaning one hand on his porch staring into the darkness.

’til I’m in the ground and I’m cold

He sits on his step as night falls all around him. He throws a rock into the darkness.

I’m not sitting up here on some throne

He is walking in the early dawn down the same road.


Like a dog you can always come home

He sees Bella sitting with her knees drawn up and head down at the border.

Dig up a bone

He reaches his hand down to her she gazes up at him and slowly lifts her hand

Look around

We see Bella and Jacob sleeping in the tent Bella  responds to  Jacob’s agony by saying “Jacob, my Jacob”. Jacob  pulls her closer and we hear a very faint growl from the corner where Edward is crouching, one hand clenching his hair the other covering his mouth as he glares over at the couple.

[EDWARD GRIEVES] [JACOB DREAMS] [BELLA'S NIGHTMARE] [CONFESSIONS] [LION, LAMB AND MEADOW]

FanFic: Bella's Nightmare By KristinLynn

Sorry this one took so long. Would you understand if I said it was very hard to do? I'm glad it's done. It's intense. Once you turn on the song you have to start reading right away. I'm not sure anyone is going to "like" it. I think I'll be satisfied if anyone thinks it's "effective".

Bella’s Nightmare set to Going Under by Evanescence
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Bella stares over a bowl of cereal

Now I will tell you what I've done for you –

Same stare in class and lunch
dark circles under her eyes, hair in a messy up-do.

50 thousand tears I've cried.

She sits in her truck panting and holding her stomach in the rain.

Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you –

She has the same stare as she parks home in her truck

And you still won't hear me.

Suddenly she rips into her car stereo
(going under)

Her bare hands rake and pull the stereo

Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.

She uses a screw driver to continue

Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)

Hammer on screwdriver forcing pieces of plastic and metal out of the gaping wound in her dashboard

Not tormented daily defeated by you

She walks with a bag toward the side of her house and glances up at the forest

Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

In the forest we see Bella’s hands at her sides
held down by pale hands
pale lips on her forehead
pale hands brush quickly away

I'm dying again

her hair whips to one side, her glance follows her hair

I'm going under (going under)

Her body follows her head and starts running through the green on no path

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

She gets to a rise in the green and then falls over the edge

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

She rolls when she hits the bottom and gets up quickly

I've got to break through

She silently sobs holding her chest
looks down at her hands holding the bag with the broken stereo

I'm going under

Bella is in her room she grabs her CD’s and starts smashing them one by one in her room

Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.

She breaks CD after CD
The pile of broken CD’s builds

(So I don't know what's real) So I don't know what's real (and what's not)*So I don't know what's real* and what's not

Her hand puts the last of the broken CD’s in a trash bag

Always confusing the thoughts in my head

She crawls over and pulls herself into her bed

So I can't trust myself anymore

She is folded over on herself
Silently sobbing clutching her stomach and chest

I'm dying again

Bella grabs her pillow and pulls it to her chest it falls in a hole there

I'm going under (going under)

She grabs another pillow to her chest and it falls in

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

She grabs her blankets stuffing them into the hole in her chest

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

As the blanket disappears in her chest the bed starts to collapse around her in a free fall

I've got to break through

Bella is falling through the forest

I'm...

she hits the ground hard

So go on and scream

Forces herself up
she trips
but doesn’t fall

Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)

she stands still staring at the green

I won't be broken again (again)

Then she starts running
She runs pushing bushes out of her way

I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under

She tries to dodge around trees but hits her side
She is running through ferns
forest grows dark
she trips into a free fall

I'm dying again

She lands in the middle of tall ferns

I'm going under (going under)

She rolls over on her left side panting

Drowning in you (drowning in you)

Rain pours down on her and she looks at the trees

I'm falling forever (falling forever)

There is a dark shadow to her right

I've got to break through

The shadow moves fast left through the trees
She tries to track it with her eyes

I'm going under (going under)

Bella’s eyes widen with fear

I'm going under (drowning in you)

A heavy shadow falls across Bella through the trees
I'm going under

Bella sits up screaming in her bed she grabs her pillow and clutches it to her mouth.

[EDWARD GRIEVES] [JACOB DREAMS] [BELLA'S NIGHTMARE] [CONFESSIONS] [LION, LAMB AND MEADOW]

FanFic: Confessions (from the meadow) By KristinLynn

Thank you to Stephanie Meyer for writing such complete scenes. This compilation of the body language between Edward and Bella came from a request by Multitaskmom to do the meadow scene. We discussed songs and when I began I cried and couldn’t touch the meadow because it is so utterly beautifully written. Then I heard this "Classic" from my college days and it hit me – Edward is still so torn on what to do with Bella when they first come to the meadow. He doesn’t know how to live with or without her! I set out just to record the body language from Confessions and low and behold it went with the music. CREEPY! There is some “oh’s” that Bono belts out to give you time to catch up at the bottom. Remember I just regurgitated what Stephanie wrote. So glad at the bottom that he made his choice!

Confessions (in the meadow) set to With or With Out You – U2.
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[EDWARD GRIEVES] [JACOB DREAMS] [BELLA'S NIGHTMARE] [CONFESSIONS] [LION, LAMB AND MEADOW]

FanFic: The Lion, Lamb and the Meadow by KristinLynn

I dedicate this one to multitaskmom! Thanks Nichole for your encouragement. I hope this pleases you! What happened in the summer between prom and Bella’s birthday? How did she and Edward spend their time together? Stephanie left it to our imagination! Turn on the song and enjoy the fantasy. Here’s a glimpse of what I see:

The Lion, Lamb and the Meadow set to Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse.
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[EDWARD GRIEVES] [JACOB DREAMS] [BELLA'S NIGHTMARE] [CONFESSIONS] [LION, LAMB AND MEADOW]